I just rewatched To Save A Life. If you have not seen it, then I highly recommend it. If you have, then you completly understand why my train of thought is not exactly quiet or shallow at the moment.
I have sat by several friends at this point during dark nights... the ones where you need to take away the pills, the rope, the blades, the ammo, and the nights where you just need to talk. For a very long time. And sit in silence. And make it ok to cry.
The nights where you just pray silent prayers that are actually screams to Abba because you don't actually have ANYTHING that you can say... and you are just begging Him to come and be a part of it all.

And He does. He always does. Infact, He never walked away in the first place. And I have seen Him do miracles.
I watched Him do one that night in the mirror. And I have seen Him do them in SOOOO many lives. And it blows my mind. Have you ever really watched God pursue His chosen? His beloved?
Sit back and observe it... watch the miracle in action before your eyes. And be bold enough to take part! The depths that you see... they take you away and you do not return the same when you watch God change someone from the inside out.

And at some point, you look in the mirror again and see that you were changed, too.