I wish there were words for those moments when God is so close it feels like you can feel the hair on His arm as it wraps around you and then all of a sudden He just pulls you in close and holds you so tight that you feel like you almost can't breathe but wouldn't want to be anywhere else. That is the moment when I feel like the rocks and trees... my every pore wants to cry out. I am crying out. If you could see an aura...

Even though, I don't have all that I miss and even though my heart is breaking for so many things and people and I am homesick beyond all belief... He is soooo close. It is so sweet.

It makes me desparate for them to know. Not to know with head knowledge... but to KNOW. How can that not be the purpose for everything I am doing here? For them to KNOW Him.

But I don't even know Him the way I should... the way I want to, the way I need to. O God... man... to Know you like that... Father, be that close, that intimate to my thoughts, my breath, my heart. I want to want you.