I have exactly two weeks left as a Texas resident. I am in negotiations with my store manager to coordinate the transfer of my position from the store here to the one in Ephraim. He is kind of hard to get ahold of but he swears that he is trying. I pray that he makes the call, like I asked...
I still need to pack and get an appraisial on the caddie. After that, all that's left is to officially sell the caddie and say the last of my goodbyes. That part sucks. My heart is incredibly heavy when I face the fact that the way that I have faced life for the last 5 years is about to drastically change due mostly in part to the fact that the people that I have cared so much about for the last 5 years will not be in the day to day parts of it. And it won't be the same.
I know there is a new begining. Trust me, I am more excited about it than anyone. This is THE MINISTRY that Jesus has given me to work alongside Him in, and I could not be more grateful. Unfortunately, sometimes I feel like the rich merchant who had too much to leave behind and is reluctant to go. I am so rich here in my friends and church. The spiritual, emotional, intellectual, and physical support system that God has provided... I feel incredibly weak when I think about leaving it all.
And I know that I won't be going to Mars or anything that far away and that everyone is only a phone call away, but to deny that things will change is just stupid. And I know that Christ works best in our weakness.
I just also know that I "want" to be like Mary and fall at His feet and follow Him wherever, but I "feel" like the ones who want to say goodbye first to their family or maybe take the family along... And this is one trip that I am being told to go on by myself. At least for now.
There is also an AMAZING support group there already established, and I am not going to lie and say that I am not excited about working with some of the most amazing Christians that I have ever met.
I am just finding it hard to let go of the ones here...
This blog is going to be an honest account of the ministry and what God is doing with the move and in Utah. Part of that honesty will be days like this...